NP: Six String Rocketeer - Daily Planet
so early in the spring semester i got back in touch with an old friend. he was one of my best friends in high school. well, we were close from about 8th to 10th grade. i actually had a huge crush on him for awhile, but he started dating my best friend. we stayed somewhat close (not much of a choice in such a small school) but something was missing from when it was the 3 of us hanging out as friends.
well senior year i got really upset with my best friend because of their relationship. basically, she treated him like crap and he would have given her the moon anyway. they ended up breaking up. it was pretty messy and he decided never to speak to her again. he and i, in turn, lost touch.
well like i said, in february i texted him on his birthday and we started talking again for basically the first time in about 2 years. i didn’t see him after their breakup because she was my best friend and he refused to be in the same room as her. so it felt so good to have him back. i was reminded why i loved him and wondered how we could ever lose touch again.
i coached him through some bitter moments and tried to get him to move on from his ex, but he was still pretty bitter about it. he referred to me as his therapist. meanwhile, my best friend broke up with her boyfriend and he caught wind of it. she claimed she’d changed (and i believe her) and wanted desperately to see him again. he wanted nothing to do with her. but as i coaxed him toward forgiveness, he made the decision that he was going to give her a chance to explain herself. he asked how i felt about that and i told him honestly that from my conversations with him and with her, that i thought the best thing for him would be to move on. get to the point where you can stand to attend the same party, then move on. the best thing for her would be to get back together. unfortunately you have to pick one or the other or find a happy medium…or leave things the way they were — miserable.
when he made the decision to talk to her again, i will admit my reasons were selfish for not wanting it to go incredibly well. i remembered what it was like the first time they started dating, when he and i lost our close friendship and i was afraid that now that i had him back, i wouldn’t be able to find that with him again once he went back to her. so yeah i guess i’m wrong and maybe even a bad friend for not wanting my best friends utter happiness, i won’t deny it.
well it happened. he talked to her. it went well. now instead of talking to me for 3 hours a day, he texts her, calls her, and visits her 24/7. meanwhile i get nothing. now that i’m typing it i feel incredibly selfish, but really, before they talked he came to pick me up at my house just to drive around on a boring night, or he got online to talk to me about life in general, or called me to keep himself awake while driving back to school. he said i was one of the only girls he actually liked. now it’s like i’m not even here. i haven’t heard from him but about twice since they started things back up. i can see it coming. they’re getting back together i’m sure. which means i’ll only see him when he’s with her. and i’m happy for them. i want nothing more than to see both of them happy again, but i thought maybe i could keep that friendship that we had redeveloped. i guess not. i was so excited about the list of stuff he and i were gonna do together this summer. we were gonna go to a concert, a couple of astros games, have a spaghetti picnic, and had a list of movies to watch together and it won’t be the same if i’m just the third wheel on the summer we planned together.